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[shiningfractal]

when I have to talk to women
I'm always plagued by
imbecility and indecision
horrible prostration of mind
and it doesn't even cease
after they go away
I have a hard time falling asleep
and I keep planning
future interactions
that are never going to happen
even when there are
zero stakes in the relationship
that gotta be
several layers deep
of defense mechanisms
boobytrapped
to trigger some
harsh responses
if someone tries to
tear them down
or maybe that just means
I'm too honest to live in society
I need more causes
to contribute to the ruin of my morals
I still don't have enough reasons
Satan has been lazy lately
books, a handler or three
some songs now and then
a collection of things
desired and then acquired
is that it is this the privilege of a master
listen I would give you more if I had more
but all I can offer you are the luxuries of civilization

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