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[shiningfractal]

contrary to this daily tendency towards oblivion
in the back of my mind, merely ignored
still lives on the unstirred desire
to look into your eyes and have
a frank energetic conversation
about all the amazing things
the future has in store for us
ah! if only I could muster
the inner resources to go
gather outer resources
the oddities of life
are as charming
as they are
exasperating
worries and fatigues
I most certainly could go without
what is the point
of this fatal obstinacy
towards feeling the hand of death
this presentiment we all share
should I affect disdain
I don't understand
the various consequences
of the subjective nature
of my love
why do I need to give up
my retired life
in order to find
a mother for my babies
amidst these
German gangs
of murderers, brigands
real bandits

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