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[shiningfractal]

it is also unlikely
that I could become one of those
strange natures
whose main pleasure in life
is mumbling the rosary all day long
anything that occurs in life
still stirs me somewhat
prompts me to write at the very least
so I'm still attached
to the act of writing
I've been thinking about the possibility
of doing absolutely nothing
for a very long time
the urge to do nothing
is no less imperious
than the various urges
to do something
I squint my eyes and my mind
trying to figure out
what is the relevance
of this that I'm supposed to do now
guess I'm just becoming
a tiresome old wheezer
feeling encumbered by reality
may be entertaining from time to time
but when that is your
default stance towards life
even when heavily medicated
things can get pretty sordid
I could not accuse her of hardness
it is just I'm kinda soft
I only hope I'm not too soft
to have her forever by my side

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