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[shiningfractal]

I'm being plagued again
by that odd feeling
of having no stakes in life
the strange idea
that nothing that I do matters
I'm careful not to extend
the same privilege to others
maybe what other people do matters
who knows
but largely this feeling
seems to stem from the fact
that I haven't produced offspring
when I look at my life
from the perspective of eternity
this lack feels worse
with every passing day
funny what a bunch of
hormones
do to a person's brain
I was told around age
twenty five to thirty five
most people experience
this strange drive
to produce offspring
guess the same way
I'm not immune to propaganda
I am not immune to
biological urges either
still
I believe
it is very unlikely
that I will be producing offspring
any time soon

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