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[shiningfractal]

Oh God

The best thing in the world is probably

Being dehumanized and alienated

Other people are hell

And being treated the way people think

People should be treated

Is incredibly degrading

I am very satisfied when

I can spend a whole day

With my books and games and songs

Undisturbed

Zero human contact

It is perfect for me

The worst things are

Boredom and lust

Because boredom requires

Novelty

And it is hard to

Generate novelty

By yourself

Lust is about the same thing

So these two drives

Really wreck my shit

Books games and songs

deal with boredom just fine

Masturbation has always been insatisfactory but

Lots of very diversified pornography

Been cutting it for a couple decades

I could probably live in a cell just fine

And wouldn't even miss the outside world

Why am I putting effort in life again?

When they threaten me

Exactly with what I want out of life

I should just ignore everything

And stay inside until I die

I'm not saying this out of depression

It is out of laziness

I just need

Endless amounts of leisure

That's all

Working

Doing anything useful at all

Is against my nature

If I ever work at anything useful

It will be entirely

By accident

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