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[shiningfractal]

I'm at school now, there is a gap hour. Proverbs 29:15 I think I was sufficiently corrected, except when it comes to work and money. I was raised as if both things were non issues. Genesis 29:15 Since I am working for free my just wages are just being taught how to behave like a man so I can bring no shame to my wife when we are finally together. Being raised locked at home with my mentally unstable mother wasn't helpful in learning how to behave like a man. She taught me lots of nonsense and her greatest fear was that I produced children. I think it is still a fear for her. Classical case of castration in psychological terms. She didn't do it just to me, she did it to all her children. Due to trauma of having started producing children before wedlock and being seriously mistreated by her family. Children are a gift from the Lord to be cherished, I don't get why these people I live with are so uptight about it. ***