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[shiningfractal]

well, do you let other people love you?
with horror he contemplated
the frequent danger and everlasting doom
that one exposes oneself to
when opening the door to your own heart
no, not really
love is an act of violence
you trust the other
will know how to respect your boundaries
you make yourself vulnerable and trust
but I've been unable
to find someone
who I could trust
to that level
I trust people superficially
but this deeper trust
to put your heart in someone's hand
and know they won't ever, ever
do anything to hurt you
that I haven't been able to do
because I had my trust broken before
it was spectacular
at least for me
and prompted years upon years
of misery and chaos
funny how one little
unhealed trauma
can take someone's life
completely out of whack
it is like I was told once
the LGBT community is not a community
it is more like the segregated people in class
forced to do a group assignment together

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