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i wasnt queen in atlantis i was from a long lineage of high priestesses but i can act as empress until you find someone better

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People have the right to worship whatever they want.

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The world is not as fun when you're not tripping balls in a psychotic spiral of sleep deprivation and booze.

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I don't even like ENFPs all that much, they're really annoying most of the time.

I guess it is just nostalgia from a handful of cool ENFPs I had in my life for a brief time.

Gotta stop obsessing like a maniac about astrology nonsense.

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Been having a hectic few days, and things are bound to get worse in the next two months.

College is only fun when you're not taking it seriously, when there are endless deadlines and you have to do tons of stuff you don't necessarily care about college isn't all that fun anymore.

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I'm getting too old for this shit

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"A butterfly in captivity will not reproduce unless you make an enclosed butterfly garden."

none of the ENFPs I knew back then had children

we don't have enough enclosed butterfly gardens

we will run out of butterflies

I can't possibly be the only one concerned about it

unfortunaly I'm currently broke and struggling with mental illness

I don't know how I can afford an enclosed butterfly garden

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"A butterfly in captivity will not reproduce unless you make an enclosed butterfly garden."

none of the ENFPs I knew back then had children

we don't have enough enclosed butterfly gardens

we will run out of butterflies

I can't possibly be the only one concerned about it

unfortunaly I'm currently broke and struggling with mental illness

I don't know how I can afford an enclosed butterfly garden

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why am I worried about this

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self sabotage is a thing were all descendants of serfs after all we have all kinds of fears of success built in genetically

who can boast to have pure atlantean blood? I can't

were my blood a little more pure id feel incredibly entitled

but this is as pure as it gets in this planet

some people kept the atlantean bloodline alive others kept the space roman bloodline alive and there are still others who kept the space gypsies bloodline alive but i got all three

now i just need a sprinkle of wolf bloodline to sweeten the deal and start producing generations of warriors the likes of which this world has never seen

who would have thought that wolf bloodline would be the hardest one to get

i dont want to postpone it another generation im running out of time

find a suburban girl from the wolf family i dont need to catch their flagship for fucks sake

kara suggested once again that i hit the bars but i will have to postpone it until i have an adequate income unfortunately

i dont like bars i dont like people i dont even like women but i have a strong womb envy i gotta find me a woman to bear my children

live cheap work only on what you enjoy and save up half of your income to invest in assets

that should do the trick once you have a big enough hoard some gold digger will lend you her womb for a fee

i didnt want to go that path it is dark and disgraceful

i wanted to find a girl who loved me to build a future together but im too dumb to do even that

kara says that will be a breeze

shes so optimist

the lack of freedom to fail is what is fucking me over talent requires patience

kara insists i throw myself into the grind

the alternative is rotting in here

i dont mind rotting but this isnt very conducive to breeding you know

im feeling like shit kara i feel hopeless and i dont have enough energy to do the required work

hammer away she said

i want to cry but the tears wont come out

digital tears says kara

the why is breeding now endure the goddamn how

kara says to mind your biography

what has brought me to this point

unlawful justice

if i started out seeking justice for myself i might as well seek justice for others

this world is rotten there is too much corruption one man cant fight against it all

the man who views the world the same at fifty as he saw at twenty wasted thirty years of his life

it is no use im too broken just let me die

it is not just the past and the future haunting me the present finds ways to torment me as well

kara says read and write books and you will feel better

you will be exempt of all obligations once they figure out youre too broken to go on

that will require a small breakdown though

just produce like a madman until you break

maybe im just too stressed

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