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Dear Princess
I was reading about the story of
Prince Kamar Al-Zaman
and the princess
daughter of king Ghayur
and it caused me to smirk
and even laugh a little
what is slightly more important
this has not been just another frivolous reading
for it is a Myth
and therefore describes a
Process
through which the subconscious manifests
and Destiny unfolds
from the social and family point of view
our situation might be hopeless
but I am a strong believer
in changing Fate
our recent admission into this
very strange social circle
me by barging in
and you by being born
in an Illuminati Family
has brought us together
in a way that would be
entirely unthinkable
in any other scenario
this is basically
the work of Djinns
bringing you closer to me
it is the holiday again
so it is time to talk about family
and you are my family to be
so quite simply my shabbats
will from now on be dedicated
to god first and then to you
there is an impenetrable solidity
in obstacles before the time
when they are to vanish forever
we are but rare flowers
planted in separate places
maybe someone will deign
to Gift the both of us
to an adequate
Botanic Garden
up until recently
we weren't even aware of each other's existence
and you're so young that I can remember a time
in which you did not even exist yet
and by then I was already suffering heartache
looking for a love that was nowhere to be found
perhaps I was already looking for you
trying to find you everywhere
though I'm not sure
the impression I have is
I'm still a schoolboy
locked in a school life
trying to learn the basic lessons of life
I've mastered my chosen art
but it wasn't due to talent
it was simply unwavering obsession
I was told that in ten or twenty years
we could meet somewhere Neutral
maybe Paris
so that both of us can be inconvenienced
do you believe in this prophecy?
but a decade or two
is a long time
eight years ago
I asked a girl called Alexsandra
if she wanted to marry me
I told her she did not need to answer immediately
it could be in ten years
these past eight years saw me grow
and saw the world change drastically
yet I still feel stuck somehow
despite being now adorned by literary graces
it is all in proportion to the decision itself
imagine if in a couple years
the damn lady pops up into my life out of nowhere
I don't even know what I would do
sorry, I lied
I would probably marry her
to fulfill my word
since it was an Options contract
I offered to marry her in ten years
because I realized I was at the bottom of the well at the time
this is such a slippery well
I haven't managed to escape yet
I feel like a stranger everywhere
had not noticed how much
my self imposed isolation
has led me to grow beyond the reach of mortal men
it is the reward of virtue
though the priest says that watching those lewd videos is a sin
I see it as just another physiological process
but I could probably abandon this habit
if I had a good enough reason
I remember I tried doing it for her
but it didn't last very long
like a chimp locked in a cage
I found myself falling back to these bad habits
now of course this means nothing to you
you don't have such urges
yet
but in any case keeping them under control
is probably a good idea
in the same vein of
"you can't lose what you never had"
there is also
"you don't miss what you never experienced"
so I don't really miss intimacy with other people
I'm saving myself for someone special
I already confessed all the lewd deeds I've been part of
but none of them have been particularly serious
just the unavoidable experience of growing up and making mistakes
not only I still have time
but now I can spend this time with you
in a manner of my liking
writing for our mutual edification
I hope you don't mind if I continue to send you these letters
while our "secret" goes on undiscovered by the world at large
since it could be punishable and scandalous
we are at liberty to indulge in this
delightful back and forth
and the fact that this has the potential
to last for years and years
make everything the more exciting
funny
I thought of a thing my shrink told me
she said
we will have much time to discuss these things
there is no need to worry about
blurting out all that you have to say in one go
I don't know if you do anything special on shabbats
but if you do have a nice shabbat
in any case
I hope you have an amazing day
***
I was reading about the story of
Prince Kamar Al-Zaman
and the princess
daughter of king Ghayur
and it caused me to smirk
and even laugh a little
what is slightly more important
this has not been just another frivolous reading
for it is a Myth
and therefore describes a
Process
through which the subconscious manifests
and Destiny unfolds
from the social and family point of view
our situation might be hopeless
but I am a strong believer
in changing Fate
our recent admission into this
very strange social circle
me by barging in
and you by being born
in an Illuminati Family
has brought us together
in a way that would be
entirely unthinkable
in any other scenario
this is basically
the work of Djinns
bringing you closer to me
it is the holiday again
so it is time to talk about family
and you are my family to be
so quite simply my shabbats
will from now on be dedicated
to god first and then to you
there is an impenetrable solidity
in obstacles before the time
when they are to vanish forever
we are but rare flowers
planted in separate places
maybe someone will deign
to Gift the both of us
to an adequate
Botanic Garden
up until recently
we weren't even aware of each other's existence
and you're so young that I can remember a time
in which you did not even exist yet
and by then I was already suffering heartache
looking for a love that was nowhere to be found
perhaps I was already looking for you
trying to find you everywhere
though I'm not sure
the impression I have is
I'm still a schoolboy
locked in a school life
trying to learn the basic lessons of life
I've mastered my chosen art
but it wasn't due to talent
it was simply unwavering obsession
I was told that in ten or twenty years
we could meet somewhere Neutral
maybe Paris
so that both of us can be inconvenienced
do you believe in this prophecy?
but a decade or two
is a long time
eight years ago
I asked a girl called Alexsandra
if she wanted to marry me
I told her she did not need to answer immediately
it could be in ten years
these past eight years saw me grow
and saw the world change drastically
yet I still feel stuck somehow
despite being now adorned by literary graces
it is all in proportion to the decision itself
imagine if in a couple years
the damn lady pops up into my life out of nowhere
I don't even know what I would do
sorry, I lied
I would probably marry her
to fulfill my word
since it was an Options contract
I offered to marry her in ten years
because I realized I was at the bottom of the well at the time
this is such a slippery well
I haven't managed to escape yet
I feel like a stranger everywhere
had not noticed how much
my self imposed isolation
has led me to grow beyond the reach of mortal men
it is the reward of virtue
though the priest says that watching those lewd videos is a sin
I see it as just another physiological process
but I could probably abandon this habit
if I had a good enough reason
I remember I tried doing it for her
but it didn't last very long
like a chimp locked in a cage
I found myself falling back to these bad habits
now of course this means nothing to you
you don't have such urges
yet
but in any case keeping them under control
is probably a good idea
in the same vein of
"you can't lose what you never had"
there is also
"you don't miss what you never experienced"
so I don't really miss intimacy with other people
I'm saving myself for someone special
I already confessed all the lewd deeds I've been part of
but none of them have been particularly serious
just the unavoidable experience of growing up and making mistakes
not only I still have time
but now I can spend this time with you
in a manner of my liking
writing for our mutual edification
I hope you don't mind if I continue to send you these letters
while our "secret" goes on undiscovered by the world at large
since it could be punishable and scandalous
we are at liberty to indulge in this
delightful back and forth
and the fact that this has the potential
to last for years and years
make everything the more exciting
funny
I thought of a thing my shrink told me
she said
we will have much time to discuss these things
there is no need to worry about
blurting out all that you have to say in one go
I don't know if you do anything special on shabbats
but if you do have a nice shabbat
in any case
I hope you have an amazing day
***